Moving Forward Into My 41st Year

So I survived my birthday yesterday. I turned forty without my world crashing around me. I thought for sure I would get all sad and depressed because I wasn't where I wanted to be at this point of my life but I was fine. I think I'm more fine now that I have ever been in my life. My decision to go ahead with the weight loss surgery has been the most comforting decision I have ever made. I feel for once I may actually be able to get my life back. That there may actually be a future for me without pain and discomfort.

Be proud of a physical accomplishment.

I'm excited because I just may be able to get back on my bike sooner rather than never like I had once felt. I love to take long bike rides and push myself by biking further and further each time I ride. I remember my bike ride to the sandbanks many years ago and how proud I was of my accomplishment. 84 km was a long ride! And it didn't take me 20 hours, only 6.5! I finally believe I may actually be able to do something like that again. To feel that way again and be proud of a physical accomplishment. I had stopped believing I would feel that again.

I'm excited. I'm happy. I'm settled ...

I'm excited. I'm happy. I'm settled and I seriously feel like I'm taking control of my life again. Certainly it's going to be a long haul and a lot of hard work but I know it's possible. Today is a good day and so will tomorrow and the next and the next! Of course I do realize there will be bad days but I believe in the end it will be worth it.

So today I finally decided to post on the obesity help forums. I hope to meet people from around here who are going thru what I'm going thru but if they aren't around here, I certainly feel confident I will make many friends and receive much support from there.

Short post for today! Till we meet again!