Time to Breath and Time to Update!

Here's the latest scoops in the ever nutty moments of the life of Tina Sawicki! So I kinda avoided writing on here for the last little bit because I've been hugely embarrassed about my last doctor's appointment. I did vaguely post about it on Facebook but I still don't feel comfy exposing exactly what I learned to the entire world yet and that's due to shame. I'm ashamed of the shape I'm in and the weight I'm at. It's incredible that I've allowed myself to believe that I'm in better shape than I actually am. The doctors appointment proved that to me.

I was pretty upset about this. When I left the doctors office I actually sat down and cried in my car for almost a half hour. On a positive note, learning my bmi is a lot higher than I thought it was, may actually be a blessing in disguise. Apparently, if my referral to the Ottawa assessment clinic goes thru, I'll automatically be referred to Utica for my surgery since they do not work on people with a BMI of 50 and above. (That's all you'll get for numbers! lol). I guess this is going to make it easier for me to get approval for the surgery.

I've been patiently waiting for the past week to not call the OHIP office before I was asked to and I finally did call this morning. I spoke to Erin on the phone and she remembered me (that was surprising.) We actually spoke at length but I let her tell me things before I brought up the things I was aware of. Apparently they are still waiting to receive the letter that the doctors are being sent (I have a copy of the amendments thanks to OH!) and my letter is still pending with the ones that will get the new information. When she told me this I let her know what I have heard and apparently it's mostly true. The one thing they did say is that they have moved the date from October first to November 1st. This, of course, doesn't help me since it was over five weeks that my application hadn't been there (Arrived November 16th).

I also restated my case and reminded her about my case being misplaced at my doctors office. She said she isn't sure how or if that may affect my application but time will tell. She was really nice actually and I was surprised since I'm sure they are being bombarded with questions and phone calls from stressed out people. I did ask her if it was alright if I call her again in a week to find out my status and she said to feel free to do so.

Since I found out about all of these issues and have learned my doctor has been on the ball sending out my referrals, I've been more at peace with all of this. I figure there must be a reason why this is all happening (Things don't happen without a reason; not to me, ever.) and although I will take every step I can to fight this, if things turn out that I have to wait longer, that that is meant to be. I will have the surgery, when? that's just the million dollar question.

So, with this in mind, I called the Ontario Ombudsman's office. Strangely enough I had it in my head I'd be talking to a man. lol Turns out it's a woman or rather a number of people. Anyway, it was one of those moments I hate when I first called her. I've always tried to get comfortable with people when talking on the phone by being light hearted and lightly joking. MOST people go along with me and enjoy my discussion. Well, this lady was silent. No laugh, no gruffaw, no giggle! And I KNOW I can be pretty funny sometimes. Mind you, I did eventually get a laugh out of her. Just took a bit.

I basically had to explain the whole thing to her. She insisted at first there was nothing she can do for me ( I was pissy because she didn't even know the story at that point.) I insisted she hear me out so she rather huffily opened a case on me. By the time I was finished telling her what had happened to me, she was opened up to me and more receptive. To sum it all up, by the end of our conversation she suggested that I first of all get my doctor to write a letter explaining what happened with the application and mentioning the original date when it should have been received. She also asked me to send her proof of the date and she would call OHIP her self on behalf of me to push my case.

So, we'll see what happens. I did call my doctor and she actually called me back two minutes later and said she would be happy to write a letter to them. She's been really good since it was her bloody secretary that screwed me up! She also has to write to them and explain to them why we didn't weigh me Sept 29th and why my BMI is changed so drastically. Erin at OHIP said she would be satisfied with that to change the application. Thank god.

So now I wait, again. I've basically done all I can do and save for making a huge case against my doctors office which I don't want to do because I really do like my doctor, just not the secretary! lol Worst case scenario, I have to wait a few more months. Best case scenario, things progress as they ought to.

I do plan on going to my January 8th initial consultation with Dr. Graber though. I do have the appointment and will definitely not give that up since I will have to do it all at some point anyway. I have been rather proactive so I'm waiting to hear from the Ottawa clinic, Hamilton's and Windsor's clinics. Apparently they are aware of the new criteria for out of country surgery, so hopefully that will change the length of wait times. I've also been told I will have to get some heart tests done so I'm going to talk to my doctor about that at my next appointment on Dec. 7 and I originally had canceled my sleep clinic appointment for October but I rebooked it for January thank god. I did find out that I have to get that done before surgery as well and the waiting list for that is long so thank heavens I rebooked.

Surgery aside for a minute; I went to the opening of New Moon this past weekend. I expected it to busy and it was although we were 8th in line and waiting for two hours (ook!) we did get good seats. The new theatre is fantastic for room but I don't suggest people put their drinks in their drink holder beside me cause I spread out a bit. Well I went with 8 other people and it was great till I decided to leave and get snacks. When I came back ( I had purposely told everyone to let me have the seat on the outside of all of us for the room) this woman had moved into the seat beside mind. I nicely suggested she move her drink or it would get squished as I sat down. She looked at me like I was some sort of an alien and I repeated myself and she freaked on me and was really ignorant. She finally moved over a seat with her friend all the while bitching and belly aching. I actually said something to the effect of sorry I was fat to her and she had the balls to tell me that had I had special needs I ought to tell her of it!!!!!!!!!!! What the hell? Those of you that know me; well just imagine what I had to say to her. I was soooooo mad. Special needs!!!@! I'm fat for gods sake! AND I was there first so bite me. Needless to say I was envisioning things when later during the movie I had to get up to go pee. I so wanted to trip on her "accidentally" and land in her lap. My new BMI would have felt wonderful I'm sure!!! LOL I couldn't do it. I am 40 after all.

And that is my current update! Talk soon!